independent

last night, i did something beyond compatibility. it was beyond the guts i usually have and lets just say that last night, i have killed a part of me that has forever been killing me. okay, try to understand me. i cannot tell you directly of what happened so if you are curious why not ask. what matters most about last night was that i have gained my independence of desire. i have prolonged for it and i finally let the words free. i am proud of myself. 

not to forget i am going to gain more of the independence until i am thoroughly prepared for what is to come. for my future, my outlook on the real things to come.