reality

today was soo embarassing.

sometimes i think it takes a lot of guts and foolishness to be noticed. anyhow, it can be denied but though so, still obvious that you laugh yourself to it. i was mad for what i did, because i thought it was humiliating and pathetically obvious. but when i come to think of it, there is nothing wrong with it. maybe it was a little bit embarassing but why should i care. i mean, i was having fun and it is up to him to like what he saw or to just walk away. i dont care because there is a lot of fishes in the sea. of course i didnt mean that, just saying for my own assurance, there is no one else like him. i just couldnt bare to feel that i have been let down.