so i've quit working, now im slacking off at home. it's good, it feels empty. maybe because i no longer have to work early just to open up the spa, maybe because i no longer hear the laugh of excitement early in the morning, maybe because i no longer greet clients with eager face, maybe because i no longer have a reason to wake up everyday.
as you know, im leaving soon for matriculation in malacca. i am somehow excited for what will be there yet im scared for what wouldn't be there. like my parents and the privilege to go out and have fun. im really scared but i have to brave up because i need to learn how to be independent, to stay away from my family because one day i will be building my own empire with my own bare hands. so if i have to start somewhere, it has to be now. honestly it is not easy for me to leave nor it is easy for me to keep it all deep within me. it is a habit of mine, to be an introvert, to keep all my worries to myself. it bothers afiq soo much when he couldnt get a word out of me when i was pissed. i dislike it myself and i did let try to let it out, but it just cant escape my mouth. no matter how hard i try.
now it is like a whole load of problems bundle up in my head that keeps me awake till the midst of dusk